Roughly one year and three months ago, I embarked on what was to be the most amazing journey of my life. I had hit a rock bottom that I no longer knew what to do with. It was that moment that I finally began to realize the destruction I was placing all around me. Relationships had become so disconnected and dysfunctional that I honestly believed they would never be fixed. I finally walked back into the LDS recovery meetings, determined that this time would be different. It wasn't until later that I realized exactly what the Lord could do if I turned the power over to Him.
See, I have struggled with several addictions in my life, all starting with an addiction to pornography and sex. There, now I have titled it. I knew what it was, I just never gave it a name. Not that I had to, recovery titled it for me. But it is nice to acknowledge it. Feels good to acknowledge it, even. This addiction has been like an old friend to me for far too long. A year and three months ago, my addiction was no longer a friend, it was my lifestyle. And as such, I was in trouble. I write this blog now in an attempt to show the wondrous mercies of the Lord and the miracles of this day and age to all who care to read, and to all the women that have struggled with this very same addiction throughout their lives. once I thought I was completely alone in this, but now I realize I am not, and I hope to show others that there is hope and that there is a way to return to the fold of our Father in Heaven and our brother Jesus Christ.
